Jamie

I am sitting here watching Jamie try to wake up and praying she gives me a few more minutes of alone time. Pete is taking a nap and though I should be resting I can't. Well, I tried. Jamie woke up about 20 minutes into Pete's nap ready to eat and I just finished feeding her. I know Pete is going to be up soon so I gave up on getting some rest today and thought I would update you on our little one.

Overall Jamie is a pretty easy baby. She sleeps a lot and eats well. She has problems with gas and some reflux but nothing that causes too many problems. I wake up 2-3 times a night to feed her and usually after the early morning feeding she doesn't want to go to bed. That makes for a long day. This morning she was up at 5:30 ready to start her day and I was able to get her to lay with me for about another hour before she was wanting to get up, get changed and get moving. Then Pete gets up by 7am and our day is off and running.

Most of the time I can put Jamie down to be with Pete whether it is to feed him, play with him or give him some loving. There have been a few times when both demanded my attention at the same time and I was overwhelmed trying to handle the situation. I wish someone could get a picture of me during the day with my hair disheveled, newborn laying in one arm, toddler hanging onto the other. It would be a funny memory...someday.

Jamie is squeaky. She is always squeaking or grunting about something. Another thing I want to try to get on video. I love to watch her sleeping. She is just beautiful. She has beautiful olive skin and lot's of dark hair. Her lips are a beautiful red and like her brother I am in love with her tiny nose.

People have told me girls are more demanding. I would have to agree. I have about 1 minute, or less, to get her diaper changed or started nursing before she is having a loud meltdown. From the sound of the first little fuss I have to be moving to get things going or she will be in a full out cry before too long. Pete was nothing like this. He could be famished or have poop running down his leg and he wouldn't say a thing. To this day he is still this laid back.

So, that is my girl. Easy is many ways, but not in others. Beautiful and angelic. Gassy and fussy and up at night and early in the morning. And growing up way too fast. At her two week appointment she had already gained almost a pound and grown an inch.

I admit, I am really tired and at times very frustrated with the new challenge of two babies. I wonder almost every day, how do you do this? How am I going to survive this? How do I find the energy for both kids? How do I go anywhere and if I don't go anywhere how do I live my life every day stuck in this house? How do I play these same games or with these same toys every day? How do I care for Pete, watch him, play with him, keep him safe, when I am nursing Jamie for an hour every 2-3 hours?

Well, Pete is up and my "me" time is too. I know it will get better. I know I will survive, every mom does. And I know life is short and I need to relax and enjoy the ride. Sometimes easier said than done.